FIRST POST

HELLO WORLD.

So, I’m Nikki. And this is my first ever blog. Welcome friends… Welcome to my brain.

I figure since this is the beginning of a new age for me (the blogging age) it only seems appropriate that I write about something else that’s new that I’m experiencing right now: my transition into college.

To begin, I’m going to the University of Dayton in Ohio. Now, so you know, I do not live in Dayton, Ohio. I live six hours away from said college. And for that very reason, I am sickeningly, horribly TERRIFIED to leave home. You see, I am incredibly attached to the people in my life, AND I have a huge fear of change. Put those two things together, and well, basically, you have a fetal-positioned, hiding-under-the-blankets, hoping-life-won’t-come-find-her Nikki. But it seems that in approximately thirteen days, life will indeed come find me. So before then, I need to word vomit out all the positives and negatives that I’m feeling about this so-called “college” thing, and see what I really am dealing with here. HERE GOES NOTHING.

PROS

My Major!!!!!!!!!: Okay, because I’m so sickeningly excited about this right now, I have to say that I’m majoring in Human Rights at Dayton- the first college to create a Human Rights program- and I am one step closer to my dreams! I am going to be able to work at a non-profit and hopefully one day, start my own. Like, guys. THIS IS REAL LIFE. Oh, farts I couldn’t be more excited.

Campus: Beautiful. That’s all I need to say.

My Roommate: Christina, if you’re reading this, I AM OBSESSED WITH YOU. In a not weird way? But really, I could not be more excited to room with this girl. It seems we get along GREAT, and we’re essentially the same person. SO that’s pretty cool.

Freedom: I can set my own rules guys. I CAN SET MY OWN RULES. Ah, the sweet taste of being on your own after a lifetime of being sheltered.

Others: New Friends, New Clubs, Campus Ministry

CONS

My Boyfriend: I’m in love with Ben. Ben is a senior in high school. At home. Six hours from me. While that situation SUCKS, we’re going to do our best to make it through. Through prayer, skype, and trust, we’re hoping it’ll work out. That being said, there’s the possibility that it WON’T work out. We will be living two different lives, in two different places, in two different stages of life. That’s a whole lot of difference for one relationship to hold. But you know what? We can do it.

I think halfway through typing that section, I reaffirmed my positive attitude towards this situation. Ah, the emotional powers of blogging.

My Best Friends: Well, every kid going to college has to deal with this struggle I think. My very best friends in the world are going to be spread out throughout the country- at home, at Bama, at Mizzou, at MSU, and anywhere else you can think of.  I still have not completely come to terms with that. My very best friend, Brendan, will be nine hours from me. NINE HOURS. Right now he lives three MINUTES from me. How does one deal with separation anxiety that is as large as mine? Especially when they are as sucky at texting people as I am? It seems impossible. But again, as I said with Ben… I can do this.

My Emotional Stability

Guys, I get sad a lot. HOW DO I GET HAPPY WHEN THERE IS NO ONE AROUND THAT KNOWS ABOUT ME GETTING SAD LIKE THIS. Skype is there, yeah… But it’s not the same as actually being with my support system. And that scares the crap out of me.

Getting Home on Weekends

No car on campus… I could always bike home? OH WAIT

Pooping in Public Toilets

Y’all know I clog toilets like it’s my job… Sorry community bathroommates, THAT’S MY BAD.

Others: No DVR to Record Friends

So it seems that this didn’t help me at all. But hey, at least you guys know what’s going on in my head about this? Ah, whatever… If you guys take anything from this post… Just know that if you’re going through a rough transition time in your life, or even if you’re not… There are always pros to match each con, and you will always be able to control your attitude towards the situation. So hold on to those positives and if you ever get to the point where you can only see the negatives, call me up, and I got your back.

No but seriously call me. I'm here for you.

That’s all.

Much love,

Nikki.